STRESSED OUT!!!!

*screamz* I'm studying till i'm on the verge of going MAD,

sleeping at 5, 6am almost everyday

progress is at snail pace and i don't have much time left

i'm worried for my grades...wonder if life science is really for me

i feel stupid

can't concentrate on studying at home

wanna cry coz im feeling too claustrophobic studying at the corner desk in my room =(

3 quards or the entire NUS population finished their exams TODAY or EARLIER *GROUCH*

just had a BIG FAT HUGEASS quarrel with an ex classmate which upsetted my balance..sheesh people should just THINK before they speak instead of apologising after hurling an insult

i just wanna curl up in my bed and cry for a long long while ='(

And today I almost... almost tricked her into wanting to eat cat food - my toopid ahgong

I am not studying coz I'm playing with wg's phone while he plays with my lappie
He shall now show u all that janna has been doing while in mac "studying" =)

=D Highly entertained!

Wahahaa I've been HIGHLY entertained tonight *grinz* met up with Elv for dinner again and as USUAL he was whining and whinnnning away O.o . And i was amused again by some stupid comment he made...can't remember what though *scratch head* =D yaay and I had special surprise delivery of chocolate waffle to SSA a few days back from him AWWWW SO SWEET!!! Boo but he didn't let me eat icecreaaam today coz i was sick hurmph

SO

I went to meet Sammy Sam Sam the Stupid Stupard Panda for Haagen Dazz! HEE! And i found a new friend to gang up against him *evil grinz* Lance, who knew him ever since kindergarten wahaha! So fun to kachiao! Whee! Never fails to entertain me with his stupidity wahahaha! Ok laah...i shall help him rebuild his broken reputation LOL Sam is a *cough chokes gag sputters* NICE *cough* guy =D Okok fine...he's actually really one of the nicest guy I've met, someone I can play and have fun with, someone who never fails to be there =) that same silly person who was stressed until he couldn't sleep coz he was supposed to be in time to rescue me from *ahems* thankew!

And of coz...his stupidity never fails to bowl me over with laughter everytime =D

hee =D yaay this is what I need when I'm stressed out with studying wahaha!*hugzzzzzz!*

2.39pm ...back at SSA...just sent Ahgong for his exam...wished LG, Lionel and Zhencong good luck for their MOM. Didn't see CK but Ahgong says that he always wears red for exams so..haha should be fine lah lol he doesn't seem like the type to let anything get him down anyway. Duno what paper Weihuang was taking but wished him good luck too. Saw Darrel at MPSH and he wished ME gdluck bwahaha and I told him I don't have a paper *grinz* that blur toad, i wasn't even carrying anything, write with my blood arh haha

i feel like the women last time sending their hubbies to war and waiting for their return hurr.

sigh walked pass the pool just now...miss having camps, missing the dunking (bwahaha by the way, i'm proud to be the first to dunk Jon during UC LOL...though i too got thrown in after that rawrr), missing the fun with the whole bunch of UC peeps. RAWRRR...can't wait!!! UC 07 on 9th July to 14th this time with GH as IC =D ...6 days of FUN FUN and more FUN with everyooooone!

27th April...3 papers down...2 more to go...RAWRRRRRRRR

Did I fall in love for nothing...

A lie is still a lie even if the one lying had your best intentions at heart

A promise broken, becomes just empty words washed away by time

A heart broken, is a heart scarred and one which will never really be the same again...

How nice...I must be the most pathetic person in the whole entire world who had gotten all 3 dumped on her in different phases of her life.

there are times when i wish to talk to someone close when i get upset,

there are times when i just don't feel like talking at all...when i feel like shutting myself in because i don't even know where to start...when the tears just flow as i'm sitting alone in the dark, and my dad comes into the kitchen rambling on and on and asking me stupid questions about my exams, not even detecting that i'm crying

i feel small

i feel like i cant compare

i feel that i'm being overly paranoid and I HATE MYSELF

haiz...maybe Weihuang was right...maybe I am a difficult person to handle. I really don't know if I'm even of any help in anything at all or if I'm just making everything much worse. But I can't help but think, why am I difficult to handle even when what I want is so simple? And yeah seems like Elv was correct in predicting what he did...

I was surprised when Candice told me that I'm brave for doing what I'm doing...still doing...

I think I'm a coward...for not being able to let go

I need a big fat hug =( i miss Mel and the big fat Pooh hugs that he gave

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.
.
.
no matter how hard i try, it's a emotional barrier i've yet to overcome

=( Sammy says that the problem with me is that i always let others affect me easily...

how not to siaa...i'm going outta my mind already *SOBZ* yaay i love my sis for telling -AHEM- off for stressing me rawrrr

sis: if you really love me, lunch is on you for the next 5 weeks
me: i don't love you anymore rawrrr
sis: asshole
me: pigface =D

Have you ever? (Brandy)

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for the words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start
[ Chorus ]

Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all of your life
You'd do just about anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for the day when they will care
[ Chorus ]

What do I got to do to get you in my arms baby
What do I got to say to get to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world
'Cuz baby I can't sleep
[ Chorus ]


Have you? I have...i have...and that's why these tears stream down at night

People who tell you that ''people who make you cry are not worthy of your tears" or "give up on them coz they're many others out there more worthy of your love" honestly...are just crapping up a whole lot of bull...if you didn't love him enough, you wouldn't be caring enough to shed the tears...if you could really give up so easily, it wouldn't be called love. Because when you love someone, you try and try to believe that there's still that something in him left for you to cling on to. There'll always be this other side to that person others can't see, will never understand, a side which made you fall so hard in the first place...

How do i know? I'm in it myself...

Don't know if its because of the recent events...the recent fresh wounds of hurt...or the bits of things that people say...been emotionally unstable for a bit ='( just feel like running away and hiding myself somewhere everyone can't find...somewhere you can't find me...

when it comes to that day i have to leave...i will...but i'll never be ready for it

when you've loved for so long...only to know that you've been loving in all the wrong ways possible

b.r.o.k.e.n

is there something wrong with me?

haiz...why the hell did i drag myself outta bed for? why the hell did i will myself to wake up before 12 when i could have continued sleeping...and now i'm so damn tired

i just hate it when i go all out to do something and it comes back to nothing...when you didn't even bother to notice that this is what i do every single time for your exams...

forget it...

honestly, i don't want to be mean coz technically he didn't do anything horrid to me...but i hateeee the way he is affecting my christian walk =( boo hoo hooooo

stupid sam pls don't ps tmr =( i don't wanna go down with him aloneeeee *sobz* -lg was here (okaay haha and his jacket is full of cologne *sniffles*)

im COOOOOLD and freezing my ass off in SSA rawrr..Chipz is freezing his ass off in aust boo we're two freezing asses *bleh*

was just thinking...having a sudden rush of love for the EVIL POOH =) really happy to see him so happy with Lilian, haha though he complains of how sad his life is kena henpecked, but its still visible to any fool that he loves her so so much =)

Mobilized

was "mobilized" by Saf at 5.45pm to join the bunch for drinks *rawrr* when i was JUST about to tear myself away from my storybook to study...ohwells it was a nice break though and as usual talks filled with the ultimate kind of BULL haha

stupid Mel told me to make my blog less sappy and Kwan told me to mention him so...Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan Kwan

there you go wahahah

and to my darrrrling Mel who's stepping into the graveyard of love and marriage coming 11th Aug, i am SOOOO happy for you! =D honestly, all the best for you manz! Live a happy life with Lilian! *ah lah lah so sweeet =p* As your friend, I'm truly glad that you've finally found that special one so from the bottom of my heart, I wish you well and a great marriage =) yeaps...and I'm going to Brunei for the weddinggggg!!! =D =D =D wahaha thank you in advance manz LOL

was talking to Mel...and then he asked me, "it is emotionally draining ain't it?"

it is...but nothing i can do about it

and there i go again...thinking too much...how can i compare? what is there to fight when i've already lost the battle more than once...

if you can erase your past and the hurt that came along with it...would you? I really wished I could...scars upon scars...when will they end?

i can't say for Mun Heng's case...i'm kinda in the same boat myself. When all the rest were berating him...as pissed off as I was on his behalf, I didn't wish to do the same. Of coz the rest can scold you, tell you to f*ck it and leave her...they are happily married and happily attached. As a friend, I'll respect that.....there'll always be another side of the story that people don't know.

love is irrational...that's why i'm still sinking...

yaay! i got nice nice kidney drawing for my summary notebook =D

me: ehh Ahgong i like your kidney!

Ahgong: thankew i like my kidney too...and i hope it stays there

me: *bangs head on wall*

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CK: where is the place arh?

me: bukit merah MacDonalds

CK: where is the macs?

me: it's near the library

CK: where is the library

me: in bukit merah =D

CK: O.o somebody is gonna get hurrrrt

The reason why someone is so excited to go study is because she wants to eat macs!!! - Ahgong

Forgot another stupid thing. but oh well, lots more to come..... -gonggong

Magnificent (Hillsongs)

Who compares to You?
Who set the stars in their place?
You who calmed the raging seas
That came crashing over me

Who compares to You?
You who bring the morning light
The hope of all the earth
Is rest assured in Your great love

You are magnificent, eternally
Wonderful, glorious
Jesus
No one ever will compare to You
Jesus

Where the evening fades
You call forth songs of joy
As the morning wakes
We Your children give You praise


Through so many things , You've showed me Your undying love, telling me to trust in you because of the perfect plans You have in stored for me. Thank You for securing me in Your arms each time I fall, for wiping away these tears when I cry alone in the dark and for weeping for me each time I turn away from You trusting in other things or means other than You Lord.
I am unworthy, yet You chose me and loved me the same.

crying is good...but only if you cry till you are so emotionally drained and empty, you become more or less void of feelings...sedated.

ok i found that Sammy Sam is...not that stupid after all ha which makes him...less stupid

honestly, i was enlightened. Loving someone too much can also be a form of pressure and stress when it turns into obligation on the other person's side. hmm...

anw thaaaanks stupid panda =) sorry i shocked you at 3 in the morning heh aww and your words really touched me though =) thanks for everything ...stop downloading so much porn i'm sure your com will start working soon hee

anw im gonna wait...wait till that wound is healed

as my sis says, "guys are stupid you gotta forgive them...they are really really stupid" haha

I'm tired...

physically tired...and emotionally drained

FINALLY something which showed that Sammy Sam Sam is not that STUPID after all haha he's just stupid now =p

"i don't think that it is much of you having lost something...it's more like a scar in the relationship, that it's not all that perfect anymore"

made sense to me...it is a scar and right now it's a fresh wound still on its way to healing...

me: what if there are too many scars?
Sam: then break lorr!

O.o wahlauuu...you were becoming SOOO smart...then you became stupid again ahahaha!=p

i think this issue is gg down into the 2nd thing that will always haunt me in this relationship. sighzzzzzzzz =( . and it doesn't help that im HUNGRRRRRRY at this hour and im pathetic enough not to even have instant noodles RAWR!

to you... pls do whatever you can not to reopen this fresh wound...at least let it settle...coz i don't wish to fight anything more now.

Sedate

then he hugged me and asked, "why are you so sweet?"

i guess this is what you call love. That hesitant or not, you still love being the one to light up his smile. That you would go down all the way to Thompson Plaza for a cake (thaaaaanks CK!!!you're the best lah!) and back down to NUH to get jasmine and lavender oil coz of a website you saw( though it was closed already boo) . All this even after you've lost the confidence and faith in that someone only a day ago...

it was heartwarming. a break amidst the anxiety and pressure from exams, with the buzz of the whole big bunch of peeps around you.

i wished i didn't have to see...because i hated to see what i saw...

why at such a time

angry or sad? neither...void of feelings now...guess im just, sedate

i want to find back what i lost...help me find back what i lost

something someone told me a long time ago...

"With every relationship, I give all that I can...if it comes to that day we go our separate ways, I will not bother to contact her anymore unless she contacts me again first...because I've given all that I had during the time spent with her, there is no reason I should give anymore"

Thank You.

to Panda and Elv, I really appreciate you guys having spent the time to listen to me...just being there was good enough.

Elv...i know you have expectations of me, i know you care and i know you worry for me. i don't know if i can ever be that person you wish for me to be, but i will try, i promise and thank you for believing in me. Your talk with me just now did make sense to me...at that point of time, i really felt that i was hoping to cling on to you for an answer, hoping that somehow you would know how to answer me...but as you've said, the answer only i can find out myself. =) that aside, thx for always rushing down to meet me once you've been "mobilised" heh =p

Thanks Sammy Sam Sam the Great Stupid one =D for just listening and asking about me. hmm for someone stupid, some of your words did make sense to me ytd, which...ended up making me even more upset BLEH. Ha but ohwells, your company even for a short while is much appreciated =) just continue letting me bully ok =D Eh pigg be more original la can, stop copying the way i kachiao you!

hmm...i haven't met Kai for a reeeeeeeeeeally long time. Pigg hope you're coping well with everything lah huh...so sorry i gotta ps you so many times, we'll catch up after the exams alright!

STUPID KT called me the other day sounding damn flustered, thought what happened sia, then realised he was having diarrhoea and fever from the orr luaa we had that day. Bwahaha coz i eat orr luaa without the ORR, gave him all the ORR to eat =p Really dumb leh you, ask me can do what, i tell you what medications to get, you tell me you lazy to see doctor...then what you want me to do siaa, miracle healing over the phone arh. Ha get well soon manz...you'll be "mobilised" soon!!!

Went back to SSA to study today, agreed with Weihuang that we shall make SSA our campsite this week liao. Honestly, the way he can concentrate on his work for such a LOOOONG time is...amazing. CK is totally FULL of SHIT. This Mr Smart went down for his OPEN book test...FORGET to bring book!!! Lol or more like he claims he didn't know he forgot to bring THAT set of notes. Hilarious manz..50% somemore.

Think my face in the morn was shocking to the gang anw..i just walked pass them with a blank face...just couldn't bring myself to be cheery at all...was listening to my playlist when it just jumped to the song "God will make a way" which made the tears pour down...i just couldn't hold up anymore, i just broke down...didn't want the gang to see me crying and start questioning so went to the stairs to speak to Elv...sigh and Xia caught me crying at the steps...hurr think she was damn shocked. Ohwells...honestly at this moment, i don't feel as strongly to wanna stop loving, yet i can't move on. Feel so jaded. Built up this faith for it to be lost once. Found back that faith, built it up again for it to crash down on me just like before.

How? How do you move on when you can never stop yourself from having basic expectations?

Grace

ok yupz I'm sorry Shaun but I plagiarized again =p but just thought I would share this on my blog too coz it had touched my heart...

When God forgives, it is complete. He bears no grudges, He wipes the slate clean, and sees us as holy and righteous once again .. until our next sin. Then, He griefs. It pains His heart that we succumbed once more to temptation, that we strayed once again from the path He set for us. If we repent, He is faithful and just to forgive us again, just as He had, a million times before.

That's the love and mercy of God.

When Man forgives, it is incomplete. That's the problem.

you used to be the first person I would run to when I'm upset, when I need to rant, or when I'm on a sugar high and need to release my happy energy...

was happy for a moment, was about to call you for a moment...and then I remember...not anymore, I can't

it's better not to want anything, not to expect anything, the way it goes away, or doesn't happen

when caring comes to nothing, when loving comes to nothing, when you've given all that you can but not returned the basic level of understanding and respect...

detach myself...

i
want
to
dieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

yaay I'm good =p successfully TEHH Elv to come down to nus to teach me lol even though he is still in army bwahaha but I've full confidence that he will understand once he reads it hee =D yaay back to the old times when I bug and bug him and Dennis when I don't understand anything heh

I'm stressed

I'm frustrated

I've more than ten thousand burdens on me

Don't tell me to drop them, coz if I can do so, I wouldn't even be caring now

I feel helpless and frustrated...I don't mind if you at least gave 0.001% of your effort to try it but fail, I'll still stand by you, I'll still pick you up the same when you fall...but what's the point of me trying so hard, doing so much, when YOU don't even want to try?

What else can I do?

Sometimes I really wish to just say, do what you wish, and really meaning it

Bwahaha my public apology for this stupid panda being late AGAIN
lol as usual, i only MILDY suggested =p


teehee! sammy sam sam the big stupid panda got me this!i DID NOT mildy suggest ahahah he VOLUNTEERED =D
it says...Dear God, if you can't make me thin, at least make the rest of my friends fat!
=D =D =D SO CUTEEEEEEEEEE


bwahaha my delivery Gonggong bought nice nice orr lua for meeee =D lol we decided to BLOT the orr lua, give it a cleaner...look

my boyboy died =(

I should learn to not care...

Forever Lyrics

I'll Worship at Your Throne
Whisper my own love song
With all my heart I'll sing
For You my Dad and King
I'll live for all my days
To Put a smile on Your face
And when we finally meet
It'll be for eternity

And Oh how wide You open up Your arms
When I need Your love
And how far You would come
If ever I was lost
And You said that all You feel for me
Is undying love
That You showed me through the cross

I'll worship You my God
I'll worship You my God
I love You
I love You
Forever I will sing
Forever I will be with You
Be with You

Bwahaha which GOONDUPAD went to withdraw...1200 bucks!?
No prizes for the correct guess

Once upon a time, there was Happy Toe
One day, Happy Toe met Unhappy 2nd toe...and they made friends =D

this is what Ahgong does when he's bored O.o

and I'm supposed to FLEX to give...this O.o

Ahahaha OMG lah...4 people looking so intently at my laptop coz they are studying?
NOOOO they are playing Abstractica!!! Lol Shiyao die die didn't want to go home until he hit level 50. At level 49, Chin Kiong came up with this fantastic suggestion of...HACKING the program LOL

It doesn't matter what YOU want, it only matters what SHE wants =D

Thought I would give Ahgong another surprise by helping him find his seat number, exam venues and timings for his exams, since he's so stressed out studying now too...SO STUPID me went to check the modules ONE BY ONE and had to go check the Bioengine curriculum online since I don't know his exact module codes. And yes, he was happily surprised and yes apparently I was so sweet it's about to give him diabetes (ehh I think he stole my line..hmm this sounds familiar) BUT there was actually some other way of finding where you type in your matric number and ALL your exam stuff comes out!!!

Wahlauuu! I feel so cheated =( *sooobs* and I spent like half and hr or more doing it coz I was so afraid he would land up in the wrong exam hall or something so I double and tripled check! In the end I found out it could have been done in like...1 min?? SIAN

Bleh haha but too bad I err MILDY SUGGESTED to him to use MY timetable instead. Hurmph. I still think mine is nicer lorr, chronological order somemore, and filled with MY LOVE ahahahah! Hee "It's not what YOU want, but what SHE wants!" Quote by Prof Goh lol this should be all guy's life motto. *GRINZ*

AND

I DON'T UNDERSTAND why is it that GUYS,

No.1 : die die also don't wanna carry umbrella in a RAINSTORM. They would rather risk pneumonia. Checked with Weihuang and Shiyao, apparently WH agrees with sotong Ahgong that it's more MACHO and MANLY and it's abit GAY for guys to carry umbrellas, and Shiyao doesn't carry one coz it's his habit from young. WAHLAUUU...lol I think the only guy I know who carries an umbrella is Chin Kiong, and its the HUGE ASS umbrella coz...it's already in his car. Sheesh.

No.2 : die die also don't want to ask for directions. The only time the do is only if they are with people who are just as lost.

AND...my Ahgong is a strong advocate of BOTH. *FAINTS*

Bwahaha...oh and btw, I KNOW who think Weihuang is damn cuteeee *GRINZ* =D =D =D

Bribe me. =D

That's why you go away (Micheal Learns to Rock)

Baby won't you tell me why there is sadness in your eyes
I don't wanna say goodbye to you
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
But there is something left in my head

You're the one who set it up
Now you're the one to make it stop
I'm the one who's feeling lost right now
Now you want me to forget every little thing you said
But there is something left in my head

* CHORUS : I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feelings so strong were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man your heart is missing
That's why you go away I know

You were never satisfied no matter how I tried
Now you wanna say goodbye to me
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
But there is something left in my head

* REPEAT CHORUS

Sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere
Don't know which way to go
There is so much to say now between us
There ain't so much for you
There ain't so much for me anymore



how will you know when you've come to the end of the road? Is it when your heart breaks so much accompanied by you not feeling like trying anymore, not wanting to hold on anymore?
Then why is it that I'm only feeling the former so strongly...and not the latter?

Me: ehh you all go pak tor so long arh
CK: why you jealous arh?
Lianguo: asked you wanna come anot wad, you don't want
Me: talking on the phone wad
Lianguo: can walk and talk wad! that's what a handphone is for ok
Me: bleh fine lah I'm stupid laaah
CK: that's where you're WRONG
-both looks at CK-
CK: you're just...not very smart


Wahlauuuu O.o

Some people say it's foolishness, some say it's devotion. I say it's both; foolishness because of devotion, and devotion because of foolishness. But most people will never know either, because they're too scared to take the risk to love

Haha damn full of shit Chin Kiong came back to SSA totally DRENCHED and carrying an umbrella!!!

Lionel : Ehh you scared the umbrella get wet isit? Or your umbrella got holes?
CK : Ehh I went to move my car lah, on the way raining mah. Drive back here not raining already cannot isit?


CK: Ehh where's my chairrrr?
Zhencong : I'm sitting on your chair
CK: You wanna money head mother?
Me: Lol what the hell?
CK: It's called Qian Tou Mah? you bian du bian, mei you bian du shang xia, mei you shang xia, luan luan du
Me: O.o

Ahahaha

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(supposed to go to National Lib to mug...night before)

Ahgong: hmm maybe I'll fly away after awhile...if it's very cold don't think I can study
Me: fly where?
Ahgong: fly home...to sleep! Hee
Me: ok...then I'll fly to your house to PIAK you
Ahgong: =( ehh I don't really like the ending, let's try again
Me: ok fly where?
Ahgong: fly...to another place to study
Me: ok...then I'll fly there with you to study
Ahgong: ok that sound better =D

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(getting exam welfare packs...)

Lianguo: Ehh Weiguang we missed it! In the morning it's RedBull instead of Milo
Me: Haha what's the difference?
Lianguo: Redbull more expensive mah, even if it's free must get the more expensive wan maaah
Me: O.o

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Prof Bay was also damnnn lame. Ahahaha he superimposed Prof Ng's face onto the Da Chang Jing guy as introduction to the Male Reproductive System. Lol don't ask me what's the link, I've no idea lol.

And when he was talking about some cases where puberty can occur in very young kids, he showed us this photo with a kid pregnant at age of 5

Prof Bay: don't look at me like that arh, I DIDN'T DO IT!

Talking about mammary glands...

Prof Bay : blah blah...suspensory ligaments helps to support the gland, so when you age, the ligament fails to support your breasts properly, what will happen? They sag. THAT'S why ladies need to wear a bra...not just a bra, but a GOOD bra. So don't go to the pasar malam and buy the 3 for 10 dollars ones ok?

LOL and he was as bo liao to go and cut out this article in Her World that surveyed which brand of bras is the best. Apparently it's the Triumph maximiser ahahaha.

Prof Bay : Ok so the best bra is the Triumph maximiser...in the market it cost about $89.90 so you must all wait for the Great Singapore Sale and the price will drop to $24.90!

O.o

Haha people full of shit, makes my world go round HEE. I'm amused.

something missing in my life

i don't know what it is...and maybe i'm giving up trying to find it

i should go back to swimming again...no one can see the tears while i'm swimming

I HATE MATHEMATICIANS!!!!

They should all go and die and stop ruining my life with their rubbish Statistics!!!

=)

you can blog about many things, but the most precious memories are kept in the heart

another magical night with magical you. I don't need many things, it's the simplest things that are priceless to me, the simplest things that make me so so happy. It brings back memories of that very day. So close...and yet again, I don't know how far now...

For a moment, it brought back memories of my past...thankew for that reassurance lil monkey =)

I don't know how long it's gonna last but I'm gonna live for the moment

Met up with Elv for dinner and chillout session

Lol this lil tweerp has some weird FATHERLY instincts today haha so funny

Then again I love talks like these. I like depth in a conversation. I'm intellectual okaaay.

Hurr

REALLY!!!

Yaay steamboat tmrrrr =D

I AM

P
M
Sing

I hate these kinda moods...feel like burrowing my head right back into my bed...coz every lil thing just makes me more and more irritated GROWLS!

I can't wait...the only thing I'm looking forward to now is my Bellini's laterrr *slurps*

I MISS MGS!!!!!

Rawrrrr! I wanna go back to visit!! Chang, Li!!! We NEED to go back SOON before all the teachers leave already manz..I wanna go back to eat the laska and red bowl noodle! Though I have a feeling it's all gone already *SOBZ* Gosh was reading the alumni newsletter and I missed that place sooo much! Haha I saw my favourite Lee Lao Shi! Hmm I wonder why all the nice cheena teachers I know are always not my official teachers. BOO!

Equations learnt after awhile in NUS

Open Book = Might as well don't open book
(you either have no time or the answers will never be found)

Open Book + Open Discussion = Might as well don't do the paper

the dumb things I think of while mugging for 1102

So it's ALL the guy's fault if we don't get little baby boys!

what about b-b-? Horny??

aH^sAm says:
hahaz

aH^sAm says:
next time i scold ppl fuck u

aH^sAm says:
then i will sau fuck is aso an endearing term aso

aH^sAm says:
*say

aH^sAm says:
its another term for "make love"

aH^sAm says:
which means.. "i love"

aH^sAm says:
so fuck u will mean i love u

HAHA!!! WTH!

Strategy : Linger more =D

Hee! Gonggong bought a Dumbo for me!!! =D =D =D Ahahaha! Hee coz he said I've always being lingering around the Dumbo in the shops *grinz* Heh so this proves it! Next time I want anything, JUST LINGERRRRR! Yaay! I love my Gonggong!

Oh btw, we named it Girlgirl hee! =D

And SO, we went around IMM with Girlgirl, ZHI-Highing around poking our noses into every lil nonsense we see ahahah! Haha I don't think I remember any boring outings with my Gonggong hee!WHEE! Our trips are always injected with loads of FUN FUN and more FUN! Coz why? We learnt the art of ZHI-Highing!!! Haha!

Ohya finally got Gonggong to cut his hair, now he looks like a little PENGUIN! Hee!*rubs fuzz*

Thankew darrrrling for bringing me out on this much needed break! *HUGZ*

So cutee! He looks like a penguin! Haha

My Gonggong has SIX PACS...err PACKS too!=D

Big elephant, small elephant (on the lap)

Girlgirl's intelligent kzz dun pray pray
study Genetics wan

lotsa piggin out made us like this NOW *puffs out cheeks*

we wanna be THIS! heh

Oh ya and this has been a long overdue blog post, I forgot to say...SADLY my Ahgong had not ONE not TWO but THREE affairs behind my back!!!! OMGAWWWD! *Sobz*

Affair No. 1 : Nicholas
Affair No. 2 : Lianguo...which goes to show that Lianguo is bisexual! Ahahaha
Affair No.3 : The Duck

Aurgh STRESSED!!! CA tmr and day after...how BORING. Been mugging madly up to like 7 hrs straight...I must honestly be mad.

Recruitment drive for Union Camp 07 duty today with Liwei and Yuwei. Ehh honestly I wonder why there is this biasness in the err..QUALITY of guys as it varies from faculty to faculty. Haha got the Business batch today and although we didn't get to catch the crowd since we got the afternoon shift, but the few we spoke to were not bad looking manz...

Hmm...

I wanna go Biz!!! WAHAHAHA

Then again...

I see my Ahgong so often...my eyes already quite relaxed already laaah...ahahaha shall be contented with what I have HEE =D *hugz my Gonggong* Yaa ok I know everyone's gonna gag puke and die but ohwells *grinz*

Though...

I guess I can always make more time to meet up with my darrrling Li and BIZ for breakfast...lunch...and maybe dinner in the coming semester AHHAHAHA. Accompany her waaad...see I'm so nice HEE =D

I still love my Ahgong =D =D =D

Whee Gonggong says I'm easily contented. Haha I got my many many many twirls round and round and round today! Fun mah! So fun to be lifted and twirled until I go dizzy HEE! Yaay!!! I LIKE!!! Haha my Gonggong is SUPER Gonggong lah, he can lift and TWIRL me with MY schoolbag when he has HIS schoolbag on, carrying my labtop and UBER HUGE THICK 10kg book, and he twirls me with ONE hand. Bwahaha I wonder how heavy should I be before he can't lift me anymore...BOO DON'T WANT! I still want to be twirled HEE. =D

Yaay Gonggong got muscles*pokes pokes* don't pray pray k, he has SIX pacs wan lorr...its all fused into ONE BIG PAC ahahaha! Better yet, so he says. A cup boobs, D cup belly! =D =D =D

I'd Still Say Yes (Klymaxx)

I love you most
When we share a phase
Of special good times together
It seems like our love can't get much better (No....)

Coz we were as close as two could be
' knew love could last forever
We're more than just lovers
We're good friends

Ref I: And even if our love could drift away
I wouldn't even think twice
If I wanted love back again

Chorus: Because I'd still say yes to you again
My Darlin' for you, I do it all again
Yes, I'd still say yes to you again
Darlin' for you, I do it over and over again (Say yes..oh-oh)

Where does it go
How does it end
True love it seems so easy
'Coz we have no doubts
Where we belong

Ref II: They say time can heal a broken heart
And true love never ends
So why not start where we begin

Chorus..

Say yes
Over and over...ohhh
Say yes...ohh

same kind of relationship...just a role reversal

will time make crying on the inside any less hard?

stuck in reverse

it's time to live your life says:

wad u doing?

-=GuAnG=- G for Guang and Gunners... The more I boozed, the more I mused.. Euphoria No More says:
registering for my laptop warranty

it's time to live your life says:
how boring

it's time to live your life says:
lol

-=GuAnG=- G for Guang and Gunners... The more I boozed, the more I mused.. Euphoria No More says:
ya..

-=GuAnG=- G for Guang and Gunners... The more I boozed, the more I mused.. Euphoria No More says:
I think hunting for a boar is even more boring

emptiness in place of you says:
haha ehh very off leh

-=GuAnG=- G for Guang and Gunners... The more I boozed, the more I mused.. Euphoria No More says:
den find e switch to turn it on

HURR...how lame..that my darrrling IC for you.

It was supposed to be something to cheer me up...but instead, that sadness surfaces again. And my heart breaks again...

It's a cheesy phrase, but it describes what I'm feeling right now. Something so near yet so far. Pulling me in two different directions...yet sadly, I haven't found enough reasons to give up yet...so I guess that means, holding on.

Who Am I (Casting Crowns)

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth

Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapour in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapour in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapour in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours

Duckie

Bought a damn cute balloon duckie for Ahgong today. =D

Okaaay my dear Lisaaa, Sharon and their mum were damn amused with it LOL...laugh at me laa..cute waad!

Hee Gonggong decided to bring it out to the hawker centre for a walk! Haha! This is what I love about my Ahgong lol, we machiam like in our own lil bubble by ourselves. Hmm must follow wad Angela says...ZHI HIGH! Damn hilarious to see the cars stopping for a DUCK! *GRINZ* We were afraid it would cause a pileup. Wahaha.

When my Ahgong smiles his WHOLE face will light up like Christmas tree hee! Money spent was worth it =) 4th time I hear Gonggong say he's happy =D Rare.

My Happy Lil Boy...with his duck =D

Whee!

Feeding time!

Haha! Big BUTTS!

Eyuhh...me in my unglam state. BOO!

Why did the duck cross the road?
Coz Gonggong brought it across =D

*SLURPS*

Ohnooo! Evil Gonggong bringing me to the market to slaughter!!

AHHH!

Bwahaha!

Hee *BITES Gonggong!* Oops

Ahahaha!OMG SO CUTEEEE!!! He looks so..stunned..a stunned PENGUIN!=D

Ahaha so toot =p

I hear the protests from Ahgong already

Li with duck loose in Thomson plaza