so this is me...i'm crying on the inside
no use thinking about the past. i can't change a thing.
no use thinking about the present either. i can't change a thing.
the future seems too far away for me to give it any thought.
its been sucha long time since i was last happy. so long ago that i've forgotten how to. everyday seems like sucha routine.
happy. how do i make myself happy again? i miss the times when i could see the lil joy and fun in every single thing around me.
i've lost that
i think i know why...but i just don't feel like facing up to it...what's the point?
its ridiculous sometimes.
two people who have basic love can't overcome their problems coz of a communication breakdown
two people who can understand each other, who are willing to work out problems, sadly lack the basic love.
i feel so trapped. in a world that is not mine...
i'm feeling the same emptiness the same frustrations and emotions...i'm crying on the inside
he once told me, that the world i belong in, is one where i can be silly, bimbotic and free. Free to be myself. That is where i am most comfortable in. My world is a straightforward one. It's a happy world where you can find the joy outta almost everything under the sun. It's one where no one will hurt or get hurt. One where you don't have to constantly read the people around you to know their motives.
i lost that world. in this new world...i feel that i'm constantly being judged by people around me. the way i act, the things i say, the clothes i wear, the food i eat, even my thoughts and feelings i've someone telling me that its wrong.
anw, i posted this question to the same he
have you ever thought how nice and sweet a relationship would be if it doesn't have problems, if it doesnt bring the pain that often comes with loving?
hmm the answer i got was an answer i would have expected. It's unrealistic
i just hope to be accepted as who i am. this is me. you're not asking me to change, but i feel the pressure to do so. i feel the pressure of having to choose the right words and things to talk about around you, coz from experience, somehow the conversation always turn out to be some thought-provoking "that's the way the world works" kinda talk.
mmm...suddenly felt like deleting this post, coz it suddenly came back to my mind that it doesn't matter anyway, this relationship and me is secondary to you and your dreams.
but i'll post it up anw...else i wld have just wasted my time typing this...and not like you ever have the chance to come across my blog, even if you did, you wouldn't have been bothered to.
no use thinking about the past. i can't change a thing.
no use thinking about the present either. i can't change a thing.
the future seems too far away for me to give it any thought.
its been sucha long time since i was last happy. so long ago that i've forgotten how to. everyday seems like sucha routine.
happy. how do i make myself happy again? i miss the times when i could see the lil joy and fun in every single thing around me.
i've lost that
i think i know why...but i just don't feel like facing up to it...what's the point?
its ridiculous sometimes.
two people who have basic love can't overcome their problems coz of a communication breakdown
two people who can understand each other, who are willing to work out problems, sadly lack the basic love.
i feel so trapped. in a world that is not mine...
i'm feeling the same emptiness the same frustrations and emotions...i'm crying on the inside
he once told me, that the world i belong in, is one where i can be silly, bimbotic and free. Free to be myself. That is where i am most comfortable in. My world is a straightforward one. It's a happy world where you can find the joy outta almost everything under the sun. It's one where no one will hurt or get hurt. One where you don't have to constantly read the people around you to know their motives.
i lost that world. in this new world...i feel that i'm constantly being judged by people around me. the way i act, the things i say, the clothes i wear, the food i eat, even my thoughts and feelings i've someone telling me that its wrong.
anw, i posted this question to the same he
have you ever thought how nice and sweet a relationship would be if it doesn't have problems, if it doesnt bring the pain that often comes with loving?
hmm the answer i got was an answer i would have expected. It's unrealistic
i just hope to be accepted as who i am. this is me. you're not asking me to change, but i feel the pressure to do so. i feel the pressure of having to choose the right words and things to talk about around you, coz from experience, somehow the conversation always turn out to be some thought-provoking "that's the way the world works" kinda talk.
mmm...suddenly felt like deleting this post, coz it suddenly came back to my mind that it doesn't matter anyway, this relationship and me is secondary to you and your dreams.
but i'll post it up anw...else i wld have just wasted my time typing this...and not like you ever have the chance to come across my blog, even if you did, you wouldn't have been bothered to.
posted by bringmetolife @ 1:43 AM
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