it's complicated

you're one of the sweetest guys ever...i don't wanna lose you, yet im afraid i'll end up hurting you

Shaunnnny Booooy!

Duno if you'll get to read this but hope your spirits will lift soon too! Been so long since the last we met up OMG.

ANW don't be silly there'll always be many many matches for you to win. Failure is supposed to make you work harder, not make you dejected and quit one of the best things you love in you life! Keep up the good job and you WILL defeat them coz you have the passion for it and that's what makes the fundamental difference. I know coz we all see it in your eyes each time you talk about squash or play during the lunch breaks =)

As for that problem that is bothering you now, frustrated as you are, you gotta stop letting it affect you so much. I know it's hard but leave it to Him instead. Trust, Keep the Faith, and Pray. =)

Ha you owe me for this nice post for ya!

=) Thank YOU

for making a bumming day so so fun

for letting me whack...and whack..hee and WHAAAAACK (yeaps its really free!!! call 1800-SAM ahahah!)

for making me feel appreciated

for adding to my list of happy memories

for always trying desperately to lift my spirits when im down

for sharing my hurt through all this while, for being happy when i am, and sad when im not

THANK YOU for just being YOU

I made that decision from the very start when I chose to love

it's not a decision that will fade with time

Come home ='(

i miss you Chipz...i want you home...i need a big fat hug ='(

~7 months~

What Hurts the Most

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

it hurts more than anything in the world...

you'll never really forget that one person you've learnt to love so much and gave up so much for...keep the good memories, forget the bad

for every beginning, there's an end

and all good things come to an end

feelings of emptiness that just wouldn't go away

~ im home ~

i don't feel like crying on the day i'm gonna leave...i feel like i'm reaching my breaking point

aH^sAm says:
so far by now... your tolerance lvl quite high lehz

aH^sAm says:
u ask yourself how much more u can take... and ends up taking more and more...

aH^sAm says:
and u nv realise..

aH^sAm says:
and u will continue this way...

you've 9 days to be shared among whichever other girl who wants a piece of you, you've all the time in the world to be sleeping after i'm gone, i'm just asking for the last half of the day...

i don't need you to be the sweetest guy in the world, i don't need you to buy anything for me, you should know that the smallest things you do, like just lifting me for a twirl, can make me the happiest girl ever.

i'm only asking for effort...

which seems like it's just too hard to ask for...

which seems to me that i'm not worth this effort

i'm leaving this time, with a heavy heart...because like all the other relationships that failed, i can't sustain it alone...but this relationship that might be about to fail, is by far the most important to me in my life

AWAY to Chinaaaaa

till the 23rd, ciaos

(p.s. yess Stuparrd it's 9 days not 1 mth!!! haha)

im being a paranoid bitch and i hate myself =(

if you've even realised, it'll be the longest time i'll be away from you

i hate it that i'm so dependent on you yet for you, sometimes i don't feel that i'm needed...at all...that life will go on just as normal without me

work, trips, camps...less and less time together, who am i to complain...but i'm making the effort, because if i didn't, there wouldn't even be time together

i miss you, but that's about all i can do...

it never was for me to decide...it never was from the start

heartbreaks...heartaches...never too far away to be called unreal...

it's never too far away

him: what are thinking about?
her: that if i could stay like this forever, it'll be the most blissful thing

even though right now everything's going seemingly ok, it's never really gone...the fear of losing you and living seperate lives one day

sometimes its as if this life with you is slowly ticking away...buying time...waiting the moment to explode and end...and what would i be left with?

an empty shell of who i used to be

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Wells yesterday was another nights out at Zouk.

Li, Sammy, Micheal, Sam, Timond, Matt and ME

tequila shot, whisky shot, my yummy yummy for a burning tummy flaming Lamboooo (was supposed to drink tgt with Sam but the bartender sucked, he couldn't light up the alcohol simultanously boo) and last for not least Matt got us a Submarine...some shitty beer and tequila thing which got me tipsy for a full hour *bleh* This still stands. I hate beer.

Hurr and the cheapo way haha, buying Baron's from 7 eleven to get high before going in. *hands up* i was not involved in this crime ahahaha i wonder who was though =p

the company was good, the music was good, yet somehow the night wasn't as enjoyable as the Friday before...maybe coz i had just too much on my mind, and drinking...just left me more empty...

"i could put my arms around every boy i see, but nothing compares...to you"

OMG Mel is sucha shitty doc haha! Was asking his advice about some depression thing and asking "from a doc's point of view what will you recommend?" and his reply?

"haha good sex, and lots of friends, a religion and god..why pin your hopes on a weed babe?"

O.o haha thanksss arh =p

haha Gonggong is soo funny lah..just put down the phone with him, a min later he called back then me being the ol worry wort thought something happened to him, and...turns out Hard Rock Cafe liveband was playing "Lips of an Angel" (our song) and he called to let me listen over the phone haha awww =)

wells was on the phone with Li talking about clubbing tomorrow lol and I was making some comment about resorting to ask my 1st 3 months friend to go too coz we can't find people!!! Lol and she said "omg, jan I duno whether to applaude you or to be horrified at you" haha coz she reminded me of how we got reacquinted again was coz i suddenly called her after TWO years asking her if she wanted to club. *GRINZ* oh wells SEE clubbing is a fun activity which reunited people wahhaa

AND this is dumb Melon's reply when I jio-ed him for clubbing tmr

and after all this time, you're still e one i love, you're still e one i want for life, you're still e one i'll kiss goodnite says:
yoo wad u doing tmr?

Adagio says:
hello hello hello hello

and after all this time, you're still e one i love, you're still e one i want for life, you're still e one i'll kiss goodnite says:
yes HIIIIIIIIII melon! haha

Adagio says:
I should be swimming tomorrow morning. then meeting a friend for lunch. then going down to collect some stuff near clarke quay then shift some stuff. what's up Jannanananannaa

and after all this time, you're still e one i love, you're still e one i want for life, you're still e one i'll kiss goodnite says:
clubbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb

and after all this time, you're still e one i love, you're still e one i want for life, you're still e one i'll kiss goodnite says:
hahahah

Adagio says:
wha...

Adagio says:
sorry lah.

Adagio says:
I've quit

Adagio says:
from such worldly indulgences.

Adagio says:
I'm now..

Adagio says:
a

Adagio says:
monk.


HURR. Okies so our Mr Eligible Bachelor just abandoned me, WHO'S UP FOR CLUBBING TMRRRR??? *whinesss*

Wonderful Tonight (Eric Clapton)

It's late in the evening; she's wondering what clothes to wear.
She puts on her make-up and brushes her long blonde hair.
And then she asks me, "Do I look all right?"
And I say, "Yes, you look wonderful tonight."

We go to a party and everyone turns to see
This beautiful lady that's walking around with me.
And then she asks me, "Do you feel all right?"
And I say, "Yes, I feel wonderful tonight."

I feel wonderful because I see
The love light in your eyes.
And the wonder of it all
Is that you just don't realize how much I love you.

It's time to go home now and I've got an aching head,
So I give her the car keys and she helps me to bed.
And then I tell her, as I turn out the light,
I say, "My darling, you were wonderful tonight.
Oh my darling, you were wonderful tonight."


I love this song =D coz it's our song, and you just brought new meaning to it. Ahgong has a nice nice singing voice =D awww *hugz*

Boo Gonggong just started work today at A*star IMRE boo I'm gonna miss him =( rawrr 8.30am to 6.30pm, having to use so much brainiac work and being paid rubbish amount...just insaneee manz =( haha met him after his work today and he proclaimed in a super uber cute sulky voice that he wants to be a house husband wahaha (=p don't think Weihuang would very much approve of your move haha)

oh wells...since im SLACKINGGGG away while poor lil darlin is working*grinz* I shall look up some recipes and cook yummy yum yum food for his tummy tum tum! =D

it doesn't really matter that we didn't get to do all that we wanted to, it doesn't matter as long as i'm with you =)

I
am
being
an
ass

=( it was just harmless innocent conversation...but I wish she hadn't brought it up again...I really really wish she hadn't, coz now, it's stuck with me

Hell of a GOOD TIME! Woohoo!

I WAS SOBER!!!! Bwahaha GH, Bo! Aren't you guys so damn prouda me or WHAT ahahah!
OMG I'm starting to really LOVE Phuture, the songs there were DAMN GOOD! Though before 11 it was a bunch of CRAP music ha we just got ourselves busy with the drinks woohoo! I've still got it! Ahahah no need to retrain iron liver! Ha AK 47 was gross as usual man but it was a warbed sense of fun to feel your tummy burn up after that hurr. Bourbon, Vodka, AK 47, Tequila shot, Tequila Pop...tummy burn hole manz =D Boo but I didn't get to drink my yummy Flaming Lambo =( Hee but we went for supper after that...though the prata wasnt as yummy compared to other places.

As a side note, I'm pissed off...I'm not blind and YOU of all people should have known me well enough to know. If I say it's one of the things I'm particular about , I definitely mean it.


GH me and Bo! Hehe both kena conned to club by me yesterday =p


my bestieeee lalalala


cam whoring in the toilet


ok...i look overly happy here, Bo says it's coz of THE company O.o haha i reckon it's the high of the alcohol =p and..he has lousy cam whoring skills! lol 3.0!


bwahhaa i didn't know there was sucha dumbo thing at zouk ha

Winnie's ears can be extended...


so does Sotong ears!!! *amazed* hehe =D =D =D


ha make me upset then come n tug my sleeve =p


lol this is the contact list of an almost 23 year old sotong =p

Midnight Madness Sem 2

=D =D =D he's in such vulnerable position to be...TICKLED!!!

omg...we studied till macs served breakfast O.o ...never study until so mad before...saw the first burst of life when we left for home

Gonggong's huge mess when he studies O.o

caught in the act!!! happily go and kaypoh soccer match when he was supposed to go get coffee!

incriminating evidence number 2...he might look like he's studying...look closer, he's "studying" COMICS!

Yummy Yummy for our Tummy Tum Tums! RAWR!

=D ok this is a super overdue post ANW travelled down to Thompson with CK to get this yummy four leaves cake for Gonggong and we shared it with our whole kampong bunch of study peeps haha just to revv up our moody studying spirits =)

the headless ghost cutter

ahaha how scandalous!

omg...*sniffles*gongong has another affair! With CK this time!!!
(the paper he's holding says...I FOUND CHIN KHIONG!)

bwahaha aww what a sweet resemblance =D

=D i got berry AND Bio essence to last me for my exams!*hugz*=)

I Miss You...


Boo Hoo Hoo I miss Gonggong and his hugs hee yaay and he sent this pic over =D =D =D so sweeet!

OMG everyone go awaaay *pout*

fwah ya laaah i'm still stuck in the midst of exams but dun like that kachiaooo leh

woke up this morn to Candice's msg of whether we're still going to cut hair TOMORROW...HARLOE babe my exams not finished!!! *GAAAH strangles*

Was talking to LG and after awhile he declared "hehe going to sleep now" fwah laaau

AND ULTIMATE!!!!

TAN GUANG HONG you want to DIE is it?! At 4am come and kachiao me!

-=GuAnG=- G for Guang and Gunners... The more I boozed, the more I mused.. says:
exams over already?

butterfly kisses and my love for you *stressed out ='( take me oooout!!!* says:
haha GH!!!!!!!!

butterfly kisses and my love for you *stressed out ='( take me oooout!!!* says:
GO AWAAAAAAAAAY

butterfly kisses and my love for you *stressed out ='( take me oooout!!!* says:
i finish on thurs!!!

-=GuAnG=- G for Guang and Gunners... The more I boozed, the more I mused.. says:
poor thing...

-=GuAnG=- G for Guang and Gunners... The more I boozed, the more I mused.. says:
still being tormented by the likes of NUS examinations...

-=GuAnG=- G for Guang and Gunners... The more I boozed, the more I mused.. says:
while Mr Genki plays his ass off


WAHLAU!

Haha but at least there are people who sympathize with me =D to the aww-so-sweet person who sent me this funny lil msg haha thx!!!

"i hope i'm fat, i hope im a fat super man, i hope i can fly you through the skies for a moment, just bear with it my dear, studying now more impt"

haha sheesh but the last part was damn anti-climax laaah *SOBZ*