Thank You.
to Panda and Elv, I really appreciate you guys having spent the time to listen to me...just being there was good enough.
Elv...i know you have expectations of me, i know you care and i know you worry for me. i don't know if i can ever be that person you wish for me to be, but i will try, i promise and thank you for believing in me. Your talk with me just now did make sense to me...at that point of time, i really felt that i was hoping to cling on to you for an answer, hoping that somehow you would know how to answer me...but as you've said, the answer only i can find out myself. =) that aside, thx for always rushing down to meet me once you've been "mobilised" heh =p
Thanks Sammy Sam Sam the Great Stupid one =D for just listening and asking about me. hmm for someone stupid, some of your words did make sense to me ytd, which...ended up making me even more upset BLEH. Ha but ohwells, your company even for a short while is much appreciated =) just continue letting me bully ok =D Eh pigg be more original la can, stop copying the way i kachiao you!
hmm...i haven't met Kai for a reeeeeeeeeeally long time. Pigg hope you're coping well with everything lah huh...so sorry i gotta ps you so many times, we'll catch up after the exams alright!
STUPID KT called me the other day sounding damn flustered, thought what happened sia, then realised he was having diarrhoea and fever from the orr luaa we had that day. Bwahaha coz i eat orr luaa without the ORR, gave him all the ORR to eat =p Really dumb leh you, ask me can do what, i tell you what medications to get, you tell me you lazy to see doctor...then what you want me to do siaa, miracle healing over the phone arh. Ha get well soon manz...you'll be "mobilised" soon!!!
Went back to SSA to study today, agreed with Weihuang that we shall make SSA our campsite this week liao. Honestly, the way he can concentrate on his work for such a LOOOONG time is...amazing. CK is totally FULL of SHIT. This Mr Smart went down for his OPEN book test...FORGET to bring book!!! Lol or more like he claims he didn't know he forgot to bring THAT set of notes. Hilarious manz..50% somemore.
Think my face in the morn was shocking to the gang anw..i just walked pass them with a blank face...just couldn't bring myself to be cheery at all...was listening to my playlist when it just jumped to the song "God will make a way" which made the tears pour down...i just couldn't hold up anymore, i just broke down...didn't want the gang to see me crying and start questioning so went to the stairs to speak to Elv...sigh and Xia caught me crying at the steps...hurr think she was damn shocked. Ohwells...honestly at this moment, i don't feel as strongly to wanna stop loving, yet i can't move on. Feel so jaded. Built up this faith for it to be lost once. Found back that faith, built it up again for it to crash down on me just like before.
How? How do you move on when you can never stop yourself from having basic expectations?
to Panda and Elv, I really appreciate you guys having spent the time to listen to me...just being there was good enough.
Elv...i know you have expectations of me, i know you care and i know you worry for me. i don't know if i can ever be that person you wish for me to be, but i will try, i promise and thank you for believing in me. Your talk with me just now did make sense to me...at that point of time, i really felt that i was hoping to cling on to you for an answer, hoping that somehow you would know how to answer me...but as you've said, the answer only i can find out myself. =) that aside, thx for always rushing down to meet me once you've been "mobilised" heh =p
Thanks Sammy Sam Sam the Great Stupid one =D for just listening and asking about me. hmm for someone stupid, some of your words did make sense to me ytd, which...ended up making me even more upset BLEH. Ha but ohwells, your company even for a short while is much appreciated =) just continue letting me bully ok =D Eh pigg be more original la can, stop copying the way i kachiao you!
hmm...i haven't met Kai for a reeeeeeeeeeally long time. Pigg hope you're coping well with everything lah huh...so sorry i gotta ps you so many times, we'll catch up after the exams alright!
STUPID KT called me the other day sounding damn flustered, thought what happened sia, then realised he was having diarrhoea and fever from the orr luaa we had that day. Bwahaha coz i eat orr luaa without the ORR, gave him all the ORR to eat =p Really dumb leh you, ask me can do what, i tell you what medications to get, you tell me you lazy to see doctor...then what you want me to do siaa, miracle healing over the phone arh. Ha get well soon manz...you'll be "mobilised" soon!!!
Went back to SSA to study today, agreed with Weihuang that we shall make SSA our campsite this week liao. Honestly, the way he can concentrate on his work for such a LOOOONG time is...amazing. CK is totally FULL of SHIT. This Mr Smart went down for his OPEN book test...FORGET to bring book!!! Lol or more like he claims he didn't know he forgot to bring THAT set of notes. Hilarious manz..50% somemore.
Think my face in the morn was shocking to the gang anw..i just walked pass them with a blank face...just couldn't bring myself to be cheery at all...was listening to my playlist when it just jumped to the song "God will make a way" which made the tears pour down...i just couldn't hold up anymore, i just broke down...didn't want the gang to see me crying and start questioning so went to the stairs to speak to Elv...sigh and Xia caught me crying at the steps...hurr think she was damn shocked. Ohwells...honestly at this moment, i don't feel as strongly to wanna stop loving, yet i can't move on. Feel so jaded. Built up this faith for it to be lost once. Found back that faith, built it up again for it to crash down on me just like before.
How? How do you move on when you can never stop yourself from having basic expectations?
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