I hate myself =(

hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate

i feel sad

i feel lost

i feel edgy

i feel like i've a thousand and one things to consider

i feel FRUSTRATED

i feel...like i want to cry =(

i'm scared to go for tmr's dinner aurgh

AND aside from all that there are so many things i wish to consider going for...upcoming year is gonna be ultra packed with things after things

1. Minor in Technopreneurship (7 mths full-time internship during vacation and sch term*faint*) - talk on this friday
- needs to check out participating companies
- i can drop my 6th module this sem since i will be accumulating too many credits
- i get to do everything in NOC except that it's in Singapore and only a 2wk trip to US
- i'll have to conquer my greatest fear =(
- i will be ultra shag having to go for lectures after work! *sobz* =(
- dateline for application 31 Jan 08

2. Internship with The Co-operations Pte Ltd
- Events Management Executive
- i can get more or less the same experience in Bizcom
- dateline 18 Feb 08

3. Internship with Credit Suisse
- Operations
- prestigious company...except i'm not sure if they want meeeee =(
- widens field of knowledge beyond boring Life Sci
- dateline 25th Jan 08 !!!! AHHHH!

4. DBS Account Manager
- gains working experience with a local bank
- get to know DBS people for future employment opportunities
- gets training in management blah blah
- interview with FY and KK on Thurs

5. Vanity Fair
- Head/Vice Operations Manager
- brainless fun job
- won't be taking on if I'm still taking 6 mods NO TIMEEEE!!!
- interview Tuesday (22th Jan) 12noon - 2pm, NUSSU SECT
Wednesday (23th Jan) Before 1pm - 6pm, NUSSU SECT
Friday (25th Jan) 4pm-6pm, NUSSU SECT

6. FOCC Matric Fair
- BUT Josh is not running for Proj Dir (i think)
- AND i duno who's going back!

7. Union Camp 08
- THOU SHALL NEVER BE AN OGL EVER AGAIN ...i shall come back as a councilor =D
- will definitely bump into annoying people

8. Driving! (grr i still haven't gotten my lazy ass there to register for it!)
- does not need this skill if i'm taking on role 9. (below)

9. Be a tai tai =)
- resume prepared in advance already